no place i'd rather be;

plain Jane in dull Singapore.

29 December 2010

life is so short.
it's no meaning if we just spend it by going through the motions, mug and slog.
look at those people partying and doing crazy stuffs out there; i want to be like them.
& so, i might just study overseas. (:

avelyn

heartbreakingly awesome.

26 December 2010

'I'm In Here' Lyrics
Artist(Band): Sia

I'm in here, can anybody see me?
Can anybody help?

I'm in here, a prisoner of history,
Can anybody help?

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

I'm in here, I'm trying to tell you something,
Can anybody help?

I'm in here, I'm calling out but you can't hear,
Can anybody help?

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

I'm crying out, I'm breaking down,
I am fearing it all,
Stuck inside these walls,
Tell me there is hope for me
Is anybody out there listening?

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for,
You to come rescue me,
I need you to hold,
All of the sadness I can not,
Living inside of me.

I'm in here, can anybody see me?
Can anybody help?

Avelyn
ps: i can't describe how addicted i am to gossip girl & how much i love it. (:

Pre-Christmas!

24 December 2010

Went to CSI exhibition for project. was really cool. will post my review up soon!

retro? LOL.

bff ever :D

me & dearest.

finally got the dino into the picture!

lazy to post up everything so here's the photo spam. lol.
finally it's holidays! but ironically, NOT too. all the assignments are turning holidays into hell.
even with christmas/new year going on, we still gotta complete 4 assignments in two weeks.
how evil school is. argh.
I HAVEN'T START ON ANYTHING. dieeeeeeeeeee. >.<

did a little shopping with jess the other day:
- sandals from bugis ($10) : it was a really good buy because it's comfy &has a good sole
- floral dress from Cotton On ($10) : it's really dirt cheap there right now. go shop if you haven't! the dress feels so niceeee soft and cold and smooth. lol.
- Grace's bday present (her party's coming up on sunday!)

saw this cute figure at Bugis's fruit juice stall. creative much? lol.

yesterday was great. at advanced celebration with dear because he's going m'sia with family for christmas tmr. watched Dear John at my house, cooked lunch for him, exchanged christmas presents, walk around & watch Gulliver's Travels at JP. the movie was funny & meaningful. i like :D
oh ya, i bought canvas shoes from Rubi and $5!!! HOW CHEAP IS THAT. awesome man.
somehow, yesterday felt special. idk why. hehee. (:
time flies and it's already almost one year. last christmas we aren't even together yet. haha.
anyway godsis's dress fits me well and looks really good with my white cashmere scarf! yay.

Merry christmas to dear!

dear's phail attempt to look snobbish. kekex.

my face looks seriously fat. oh well, whatever.

i'm glad i've straightened things out with my Bff.
i didn't thought it was possible, but it did.
&it's great that i've got it off my chest.
things are definitely gonna be better.
i hope things go the same for dear & his friends. =/

addicted to GG! i wish season 4 would be complete soon, then i can download it! their lives are so happening and they are either pretty babes/handsome dudes! & their clothes are like perfect. glamourous & all. man, i would die to be like that.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE! :D

avelyn

demotivated.

16 December 2010

sometimes i just don't know why i try so hard,
sometimes i question myself if it's worth it,
sometimes i just don't get what i worked for.

it's like when you be a good student
& ask questions to clarify,
you get scolded.

when you be a good student
& keep going for consultations
but get bad grades still.

when you be a good student
& hand up your assignments
only to get back not know why you got wrong.

when you try hard to be somebody
reality slaps
and you aren't anybody;
you are a nobody.

when you got tired
you hang on and keep going
only to realise you don't know why you're doing it.

because
nothing ever pays you back
for your effort.

and you can just say
fuck my life.

avelyn
i don't expect anyone to understand.

deadlines.

15 December 2010

mental note to myself:
finish commis draft tonight.
finish FA2 draft and commis final on thurs.
submit commis and relax with dear and maybe take photos for FA2 on friday.
finish FA2 final on saturday.
Finish FA2 report on sunday and have Jap tuition.
submit FA2 on monday and go for BGC.

I CAN DO IT.

avelyn

a day of randomness.

11 December 2010

i WAS doing FA2. really, i was.
but i am not now.
power of digressing.

act cute much? heh. i painted my nails!

bought this awesome-looking mascara for myself & started a blogshop!

Check out the details and support me at
http://lovedummies.blogspot.com/ !:D

anyway, fellow ngee ann friends, you guys should really try out Studio27.
it's so awesome. i've always felt so lazy to try but when i did, i was like why the hell haven't i go there before?! HAHA.

avelyn

slimming scheme.

08 December 2010

MY SLIMMING PLAN:
1. No fried food.
2. 8 glasses of plain water/day.
3. Exercise once fortnightly.
4. No snacks for me in lectures.
5. Eat meals on time.
6. No milk/milo/soft drinks.
7. Eat more fruits.
*still not gonna eat veggie
*still not gonna go on diet cos it's stupid

I'm going to do this TILL CNY!
i hope to be like 48KG? it's not much, so pleaseeee i hope i achieve it! :D

ps: radio is stressful.

avelyn
disconnected
from
you

reflection.

07 December 2010

it's a long bus ride to school today.
as usual, my thoughts drifted off to heavy things like schoolwork, future and more work.
then, i started thinking about the past.

it's funny how many people think of me as a cheery girl nowadays. i mean, it's great. but i guess there's a side of me they probably wouldn't know/see/understand ever. sometimes i still look back at my old posts in my private blog/this blog and got a peep at the past i don't ever want to recall. so why do i still read them? i guess, whenever life gets me down nowadays, looking at the posts made me realise nothing is worse than how i felt back then. if you guys think you have seen the down side of me recently, then you haven't seen the real thing. honestly? i felt like life was over.

it is not true that you get depressed when you have a reason for it. there are times, i don't even know why. i hated myself much for it.

sometimes, i still got the urge to sink back to the old habits, the darkness. but i resisted. the urge will stay with me perhaps always or maybe till someday, i don't know. but i've gotten out of it and i will forever fight it. people say the past makes you stronger; it's true.

there are times i may seem or even act like a kid but i really want to be like that. for life to be simple and to be happy for the slightest thing. & i realise the importance of many people around me. people that made me feel safe to be just the way i am. i pray, that they will never leave me.

nah, i'll never say what the other side of me was. because, this is me now.
the happier me.

and there, was my reflection during the longg ride to school.
& oh, i made a resolution to put more effort in Japanese too. seriously, continuing this way, i won't be surprised to get a Depressing D.

on a lighter note,
I NEARLY CHOKED ON A SWEET THIS MORNING!
wth right. never want to go to a hospital AGAIN for choking on STUPID THINGS like CRAB SHELL AND SWEET AND GOD KNOWS WHAT.

avelyn

all that i wanna say.

06 December 2010

More Than Words lyrics

Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy,
it would be to show me how you feel,

More than words,
is all you have to do,
to make it real,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know.

What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,
Just by saying I love you,

It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,

Now that I've tried to,
talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do,
is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands,
and touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,

More than words,
is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,(no no)
Just by saying I love you.....

avelyn

empty.

05 December 2010

been busy this weekend. seems long and unfruitful.
i did nothing much... that is, that's got to do with school work.
i spent half the day on saturday to pack my room and it was a rather satisfying task, seeing my shelves all so neat. the other half of the day was spent surfing net at godma's place.
today, i spent half the day waiting for the Samsung LCD 40-inch TV to come. and the other half watching How I Met Your Mother and reading CLEO and waiting for Bro's GF to come tonight for formal dinner.

totally poor utilising of time, in my opinion.
why?
i guess it's because the last week has been so hectic for me and now, i'm just trying to get my fair bit of rest.
handed in VEBD on friday and went to catch Rapunzel with dear at JP!
it was GREAT! we love it! :D
though we went home after that and the time was short, it was a breather for both of us.

that night i had this little chat with Julie about.... random and weird things. i have NO IDEA how the conversation took place but ya. we talked about if we believe it time travel, parallel dimension, other worlds, magic and aliens blah blahhhhhhh. you get what i meant.
and i said i believed because as scary as those thoughts are, i can't wait for something to spice up our boring lives in the boring world. &i meant what i said.

the funny thing about believing is
- sometimes you don't believe something that is really true and live in denial
- sometimes you believe in something simply because you want it to happen and live in false hopes

anyway... today when the oh-so-magnificient TV arrived, i felt a slice of our old life back. and then reality hit me and made me wake up. c'mon, the TV is on instalments and one of the rooms in my house is even rented out. it's really not that i want those affluent lifestyle. it's the feeling... of home. where have all those laughters gone? what replaced is bitterness and worries.

New VS Old.

i just feel empty suddenly. maybe because i haven't been completing what i should have.
gotta start on my work now i guess! hmmm waiting for dear to sms...
he's been really busy and stressed up lately, i hope all works well for him (:

oh by the way, i'm really surprised IT'S ALREADY DECEMBER!
i hope hols could come soon and hit me with some EXCITEMENT. oh pleaseee.

avelyn

happy 11th month, dear.

02 December 2010

Don't feel anything special today though, because both of us are so busy.
but still! i know we would survive it somehow... and next month is what i should look forward to! hehehe. can't believe we are reaching the end of the year so fast.
anyways...

ps: "i love you".

avelyn